gaining focus.

i am once again tired and dont want to write. that seems to be the story of my life. there are so many things i am supposed to be writing...a play, a program for kids i am about to start volunteering with, articles for publication in scholarly journals (since i am a scholar), cover letters for jobs, finalizing my poetry book, and this blog. ugh...but i never want to write.

still i am gaining focus.

today i went to the public library in the city i grew up in because the library in the city i currently live in has all these ridiculous rules and hours and stuff that made me extremely angry, thus i am currently developing my speech and letter to the city and the head of the library system. they will change what is going on now and i am calling the channel 10 news because channel 10 goes everywhere to solve problems. they say that they want avid readers but they do not offer an environment for people to want to read...once all that goes down i will let you know the outcome. i drove by an empty building in the historic downtown area. i would LOVE to open a bookstore there where people can come and just read book and relax and become AVID READERS. bookstore/community library. im working on it...hmm a proposal is just ONE MORE thing to have to write...lol this might take a couple of weeks. pray for me and my focus and drive to want to write!

but like i said i am gaining focus because today i went to the library and checked out some books on african american plays, how to write a play, and books on black depression. i am using these all as resources for my play i am working on because i have never written a play before and i want to make sure everything is complete and professional at the end of the day. plus i also want to do more research on depression and other peoples experiences with depression so that i make sure i touch on all kinds of issues in my production.

that makes me HAVE TO focus with all these books on my nightstand.

i have started reading this book "Broken Silence: Opening your heart and mind to therapy, a black womans recovery guide" by Dr. D Kim Singleton. I accidently *nothing is accidental obviously God wanted me to see the book for some reason* bumped into the book while trying to find another book i was looking for. so far the book has been good. The Dr discusses her experiences with 8 Black women she had as clients in therapy. I would recommend this book to Black women who are going through mental issues/illness and others who want to understand therapy and experiences of black women.

today was a good day. me and mom went out to eat at jasons deli which is a great sandwich place i also recommend to others lol i also finished unpacking and organzing my room. i have designed it and decorated and it is so nice and beautiful and comfortable i dont want to move out. mom said if she gets married next year i can have her house then i wouldnt have to move...that would be great! i didnt feel sad today much or even at all. probably because i was doing so many things trying to get the house together. it has been raining alot. they say that tomorrow will be the worst because of hurricane or tropical storm hannah is going to be headed our way...nothing new i grew up with hurricanes and tornadoes...