Sunday, September 7, 2008

because i said i would write here everyday.

writing because i have a commitment. i have yet to write my first page of the page a day commitment. i wonder what constitutes a page? single spaced? double spaced? does it have to be sentences covering the entire page or small stanzas? hmmm...ill start tomorrow.

today was...
i stayed in bed all day. took awhile to fall asleep but then didnt wake up til 12. had a dream that included two of my past lovers. interesting dream. dont care to share. but it was a good dream. i am lucky to remain friends with some of the people i used to love...

when i woke up i felt bad. stayed in bed and allowed the depression snowball to begin. i found myself hating myself and hating everyone else. then i had to do these positive exercises. got tired of that and just wen tback to sleep. mom woke me up to eat something and i continued laying in bed unti it was time to leave for my audition. the audition went very well i am sure i got the part i auditioned for. we wont know for another 3 weeks though. the play will open in january and run the entire month of february. that makes me wonder because the previous project i am involved in in DC will probably do shows for black history month so i dont know....i guess ill pray about it and see if i am offered the part....

ill leave with a quote from the book i am reading by Dr. Singleton called "Broken Silence"

"Pain is backed up energy with no release. It feeds on itself and signals that something needs attention. Pain wont go away until you attend to it"

think on that...maybe ill expand on pain next time i write.

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